It's Up To Me

It's obviously up to me. Clearly my choice. I just have to be willing to make it, which I have avoided at all costs. But ain't no one gonna do it for me. So - ok. Yes. My decision is yes. I keep waiting for lightening to strike or buildings to fall on my head or '666' to magically appear on my forehead, but nothing like that has happened at all. I say "yes'. And the reply back is "ok then. Well done." Was it always this simple?